I have not consumed alcohol in one year.
Everything about this school has ripped my heart out and stomped all over it. It’s been extremely painful, and now that it’s the end of the year, it’s only gotten more painful. I’ve never felt so undervalued and so lost.
The good news is that I didn’t even consider drinking alcohol through all of this. It’s no longer something I use to help me feel better or to drown out pain.
Tomorrow is the last day of school! What’s this feeling? Relaxation? I never knew it could feel so effing amazing!
Friday is the last day of school! I swear that teachers earn summer break in the month of May alone with all the bullshit that happens at the end of the year.
Anyway, it’s now transitioned into a more fun time where I’m saying my goodbyes to the kids and basically just chomping at the bit to start summer. It’s been the most challenging year of my career. It far surpasses the level of challenge that even my first year presented. I’ve had the most challenging groups of kids I’ve ever had, academically and behaviorally. I also have had the most challenging (and, in my opinion, unreasonable) schedule in my life. At one point, I was waking up at 4am to work my 2nd job, and then coming to school and working my main job. I’ve been emotionally and spiritually drained at certain points during the year due to the political situation in our country right now. It’s been fucking hard. And I’ve almost survived!! And I didn’t drink!! I’m sober, and I’ve almost made it through this school year!! Fuck yeah!
I think I’m off on my day count. I’m still sober. I’m SO busy. It’s not even funny. It’ll be summer soon, and then I’ll have nothing but time.
Sobriety helps a lot with stress. It’s been a long couple of weeks. Two weeks until summer! I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now!! WEEEEE!!!
It’s controlled chaos at this school right now. There are 2 weeks left in the school year.
Luckily, my classes are actually still going super well and that’s all I can control. But I can hear other people’s classes being out of control sometimes.
I’m hanging in there. This is nuts.
Still sober! I’m hanging by a thread at work. Did I mention how busy May is for teachers? But, the good news is that it’s almost summer!!
If the end of the school year and Donald Trump’s impeachment happen at the same time, I might not be able to contain my joy.
It’s Thursday! I’m almost there! I wish Fridays weren’t so insane at this school, but at least it’ll be Friday soon.
I’m feeling less overwhelmed and beat up that I’ve felt for most of this week, so that’s a good thing!